Visa Approved: Goodbye Kenya

Jambo auxiliaries!

Hope you are having the time of your lives, and if you aren’t, don’t worry, you can just continue to live vicariously through me. So, this is me getting right into it. I am leaving Kenya in a couple of minutes, for the next 3 years. It’s officially time for my testimony(nope, not singing P-square, never even crossed my mind).

So a year ago, on the 15th of October, I wrote a post on why I believe God is not dead, and now here we are a year later and the 1st item on my list is being fulfilled. I am enrolled in a Bsc Pharmaceutical Health Sciences program overseas. Can I get an Amen? A Hallelujah!! Because this time, last year, this did not seem plausible at all but the hand of God intervened and provided and opened all the doors.

  1. Obedience                                                                                                                   God called me to serve Him a long time ago, I just haven’t admitted it yet. Since 2011, God has been asking me to serve at the Youth Ministry at my church. Last year, I finally answered that call. I submitted my will to Him and obeyed His commands in all He asked of me.

    Deuteronomy 11:1~ ‘Love the LORD your God and keep his requirements, his decrees, his laws and his commands always.’

  2. Blind Faith                                                                                                                  If you would have seen the bank statement of the account that my fees was paid from, if you would have seen it last year, you would have laughed at me and called me crazy. For some reason, I had an assurance that God would provide all that I needed and indeed He has.

    John 6:35 Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.                                                   

  3. Divine Intervention                                                                                                The past few months have included the most complicated processes ever. It wasn’t easy. It has been like playing Dave, where each level is harder than the previous one and the obstacles keep getting bigger. That’s exactly what happened to me. And today, I can boldly say that this was all for God to be glorified. He personally pushed those boulders for me, so that I may declare His praises and share my testimony.

    Isaiah 66:2 “For My hand made all these things, Thus all these things came into being,” declares the LORD “But to this one I will look, To him who is humble and contrite of spirit, and who trembles at My word.

I have been aching to share this testimony for the longest time. It was also extremely difficult having to keep it from my friends and extended family until the appointed time. I am overjoyed and overwhelmed because this promise has finally been fulfilled. It’s been almost 6 months of waiting patiently for my application to reach the final stage. I have spent the last 4 years seeming crazy for insisting that I will go back. Just as crazy as Noah talking about a flood at a time when it has never rained, like ever. ‘But God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?’ ~Numbers 23:19

And now, here I am on the plane, jetting off to pursue my dream of making medicine for a living. And I share this so that you may be inspired as well. You have to trust Him blindly to lead you to the promised land. On the journey, do not give up on God because He will not give up on you. Obey His commands, and receive His blessings in your life. God is not dead, he has just been waiting for you to figure that out.

And on that note, it’s been real, have a nice life…

At least until the next post 😀

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Love me, I’m just a Girl

Every time you tell me you love me,
You break my heart
With those three words you make a million promises
Promises that you will not keep
Probably know it
When you say it
But you just have to
Get my hopes up
And let me believe in you
And again
Comes the pain
Again
Comes the realization of how foolish and blind love can be
Again
Comes the promise to let you go
And again
You beat me up and let me yell out in pain
Just so you can feel like a man
Constantly taking advantage and defiling me
Making me feel less like a woman and more like a used tampon discarded in the toilet
Always using and abusing me
Making me feel less human and more like a used piece of tissue
Flushed down the toilet along with the rejects of your stomach


Days go by like winter is coming
Another Sunday comes and its time to fake a smile
Time to keep up the act, to hide the fact that I’m hurting
In my heart and in my mind
To the depth of my soul this hurt penetrates
The bruises on my skin represent your ‘love’ for me
Got nowhere to hide
No one knows what goes on inside,
You’ve got me too scared to speak out and admit what’s going on


But then you smile at me
Then you’re polite and nice and sweet
Just like a real man should be
And then, comes the realization why you won’t let me go
I forgive
All your mistakes
Wiped out and obliterated
Ready for a fresh start with you
And again
Comes the longing to be with you
Again
Comes the longing to see you smiling, showing just how much you care
And again
I fall for it
I open up my heart and
I let you in
Doesn’t seem to matter how hard i try
I can’t seem to let you go either
Because I will always love you, even when it hurts
Just like a daughter should. . .

DISCLAIMER: I HAVE AN AMAZING RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FATHER, BUT I WROTE THIS FOR THOSE THAT CAN’T SHARE IT THEMSELVES AND RAISING AWARENESS FOR THE INTERNATIONAL DAY OF THE GIRL.

It’s A Wrap: Day #30

Jambo auxiliaries!!

Today is d-day/ red letter day/ best day ever/ last day of our lives/ end of the world as we know it/ day after yesterday and not tomorrow. Jokes!! I have finally finished the challenge 4 months later. Looking back, I have no regrets because I was able to open up on a lot of personal things that I normally would not have. I have also been able to learn a lot, it’s actually a great exercise and if you ever have the time, do try it. You can find all the details about it here.

Moving on to today’s challenge. . . Your highs and lows for the month.

Since I started this in June, I will use mine from June to October (don’t judge me, I know that’s more than 30 days but hey).

Highs.

  1. Favour                                                                                                                 God has blessed me immensely in the past couple of months and opened soo many doors I thought were permanently shut. Giving new meaning to the phrase, ‘Too blessed to be stressed.’ I know I am being vague but it’s because I have awesome news to share in a later post.        
  2. Travel opportunities                                                                                         In the past couple of months, I have been to Ilchamus, Mwingi, Nanyuki, Machakos, Sagana and Mombasa and I am travelling again in a few days.        
  3. Divine revelation                                                                                               God has been answering soo many of my questions and I have gained a deeper understanding of His word and what He wants me to do for Him, and that is absolutely amazing.            
  4. Friends                                                                                                                  I have been blessed with the most amazing friends, I can’t name them all but I pray that God keeps them in my life.           

Lows.

  1. Unmet expectations                                                                                           I am a planner. I already have my whole life planned out so when I plan then something happens contrary to that plan, it freaks me out and my life is thrown off balance.       
  2. My friends’ going through hard times                                                       One of my friends lost his brother last month while another had an accident last week and her mum is still in hospital. If you can pray for them as well, that would be great.          
  3. Complications in a simple process                                                              I needed to get something done in two weeks, then it took 3 months. Then something else that would normally take a month has taken longer and I am still waiting. But God is in control and that’s the mantra that is getting me through the anxiety.

So there you have it, those are my highs and lows for the season. It’s been real doing this challenge, and thank you for sticking with me through it and all the glory belongs to God.

Have a lovely week, and stay blessed 🙂 🙂 😀

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